I imagine that everyone who delivers a lecture has the same fears:
1. Will I do well?
2. Will anyone show up?
And the same desires:
1. I want to do well.
2. I want people to show up.
The best you can do is prepare, work hard, and hope.
During a study break, I took to my journal looking for inspiration. I’ve been keeping a journal for years- not the personal-confession kind…mainly I write down quotes and poetry that inspires or incites me. Books I have read. Interesting names I have heard or seen. Lists of favorite stories. Song snippets. I have treasured cards, pictures, notes and letters from friends tucked in the pages.
This is what I am focusing on for today.
It is a miserable state of mind to have few things to desire and many things to fear – Francis Bacon
I would argue that this is in direct contrast to Buddhism – but I would always pick desire over fear. Who wouldn’t? Passion is what defines us.